Social Life

I have been revising my life today... You know... Monday... Slo-mo, Garfield(ish) day and all... So I had to do something... Anyways...

I've been revising my life today... in special, my social life... And I have definitely, and officially noted that I don't have one! Really... apart from our Cell Meetings, and programs that involve family, or SURGE members, I have no social life what-so-ever... Not even the sort of Social Life that SURGE should provide.

And hey... we're talking about the guy that used to be in all the"baladas" , the guy that used to be one of the first people in Gospel Rock Cafe, Noite Gospel (FreakJ Style) and Arena Jovem, hell even Cafe Cancun, and Sossega Madalena... I would dance all night and be the last to one to leave...

Dude... what happened to me?

The other thing that makes me feel even worse is that my wife has more of a social life than I do... no... even worse... She has an exclusive social life WITHOUT me, Portuguese classes (with drinks after that some times) on Mondays and Wednesdays... OA meetings on tuesdays and whatever seems to happen on Thursdays and Fridays (thank god is not often or I would have gone crazy or something like that already) , which most of the times do not include me... (Baby... I know you are going to read that, and sorry if I am not being completely fair here, but put yourself in my position... remember when I used to work out and you stayed in the house all day? Well... that is sort of how I feel... The difference is that I used to co me straight back home. Too bad docs don't take me seriously enough to prescribe me something... I think I could really do with some happy pills... and u know how much I hate them!!!)

My life has become simply taking care of the boy (which I love to do... but hey... I need a break once in a while...), whilst trying to run CWI from home, without a fixed salary, which all in all and fair enough I knew it was going to happen for a while so no complains here... my career choice... I just wish I hadn't paused with the web design and photography... that is taking ages to get back in track...

And I won't even comment on my sexual life... Can't remember when was last time... about a month ago? Well...

I know I probably should not comment on many things I comment in this blog... but really... who am I gonna talk to about it? I am second in command and first in command is my mother... and let's put it like that... Some things I am not at liberty to talk to her about... well... many things...

I look like a grumpy old men don't I? Well... never mind...

I better stop... I am holding up not to burst into tears again... Or not... I don;t know... so many conflicts in my head right now that I don't really know know...

Maybe I just need to vent it some how...
Maybe I need stress relieve...
Maybe I need happy pills....

Maybe all I need is a hot shower...
or a shag...

Right ranted and raved far enough today... tomorrow things will be different (always the optimist... but hey... that's me...) all I need is to compose myself, and most of the time a couple hours of sleep would solve the problem... or a shag... lol

Gotta go... starting to sound stupid! :)

zya!