Eating me inside

Have you ever done something that it goes completelly against what you believe?
something you have proposed yourself never ever to get yourself involved with?

I am about to do so.
I am about to take a train to Mill Hill Broadway Station for a fotoshoot of a bunch of escort models for a website (www.oursecretdate.co.uk).

I used to think that there was nothing wrong with it...
But now... well... now I am quite sure that's one of the things that is eating me inside.

Money and sex-related-issues were always my downfall... and I swear I've been trying to be good with it. It's been a long long journey. And Here I am... On my way to take a bunch of naked pictures of a bunch of escort girls for money...

and Even tho I have tried to tell myself that it's ok... No sin on it...
It some how feels so wrong...