la bella luna

Soooooooooo much to blog about...
So little patience right now....

tired....
Mybe tomorrow....

I feel like that:

Por mais que eu pense
Que eu sinta, que eu fale
Tem sempre alguma coisa por dizer
Por mais que o mundo dê voltas
Em torno do sol, vem a lua me
Enlouquecer

A noite passada
Você veio me ver
A noite passada
Eu sonhei com você

Ó lua de cosmo
No céu estampada
Permita que eu possa adormecer
Quem sabe, de novo nessa madrugada
Ela resolva aparecer

A noite passada
Você veio me ver
A noite passada
Eu sonhei com você

methinks...

Grandma is here! Horray!:)

Got grandma spending the week here at home...
We spent most of the afternoon at the airport waiting yesterday. Bit it was worth it.

She Tati and Liti arrived almos 3pm and we came straight home. Vic coocked cauliflower cheese (hummmmm) and it was loads of fun!

It is great to have grandma and her wisdom round again. :)

Well got some work to do before we go for a tour...

TTFN (ZYA!)

Am I a Freak???

Xianz Videos

And Life if going very well Thank you very much!!! :)

Zya!

Crazy Crazy Week...

Really... thisweek has turned from having no scheduled work to a great success!!!
Tell ma about God's Blessings!!!

God... You're AWESOME!!!!

Amazon needed a new Ad for Leros;
Will do an other job for a Book Writer... meeting him tomorrow afternoon;
I'm meeting Wendel on Friday to present him his new viral campaign (AMEM);
I'm preparing to do a new website for Luiz Fernando Gomes (The fotographer);
Have other 2 sites in stand by for me to start working on... Well not closed yet, but geting there...
and at least but not last, I am the new photographer for Jornal Agora!!! uhuuuuuuuu!!!!

On the other side, Crossed Waves's website design is being postponed for next week. Cath just got into a contract right now and will be able to do something about the animations only on next week or so. So we're on hold.

But everything has it's own time to hapen... a couple of weeks won't make much difference in the timetable for Crossed Waves as it is scheduled to be online only in february...

Well... Gotta go...
:)

Zya!!!

august 18th announcements

Ah... Things were soooo easy! lol!!!

Why have we got to change things???

Anxiety

my fidgiting levels are way up to celing!!!
Really... I can't concentrate on anything for more tat 10 minutes ...

I need something to hapen soon... and then I need vacations... real ones... none of this stay at home for a week then go to Inlaws house for 2 days ...

I need a REAL break or I'll explode...

Well... gotta get busy...

Zya!

I feel so uninspired...

Well...
I gotta write this article for Agora about e-mail accounts...
I know exactly what to write but I am so unispired to actually do it!!!
I do feel creative and...It is just the starting it that is killing...

To much to do at the same time... When will I learn!! lol

lol...

I think part of it is cus I am soooo hungry! and well... BORED!!!! :)

nice... sooo very nice!!!

ADHD kicking in! Perfect!

zya!

Agora

Just back from taking a fotoshoot for the newest Brazilian Newspaper in town....
No... I wasn;t taking the photos... I had photos taken of me. :)

weird thing is... The photographer couldn;t focus wueh he took some pics with my camera... how very annoying... how very... wait... very convenient... to asure his pics would be the only good ones!

Lol... there I go with my conspiracy theories... lol...

Anyways...

I'll be writing a Technology column for them. There we go again.
:)

zya!

Crazy Week...

It's been a week sooooo ful of surprises!!! :)

Nina had her baby... And I am still waiting the photos, but according to her is the cutest baby ever.. lol... after Tommy of course!

Roberto and Anamari also had theys baby. U cute lil girl called Sara Rakel. Roberto is floating on air... I remember the sensation... lolo... made me think again that maybe... I said MAYBE I do want an other lil trouble... :) lol

I am now definatelly considering being a Life Coach... lol... Got a new Spiritual Daughter/syster... And once more I am coaching someone. My ministry is definatelly helping broken souls to raise up... Definatelly! And you know what? I AM LOVING IT!!! I had forgoten how well it makes you feel... a;though exausting.

Am retaking the task to write my book again.. compiling information toactually get it started.

You can say that I AM really happy this week! :) Even got a Shag!!! lol I am impossible I know!
But things are looking great! Have loads to Thank God for... and Lots to make up for lost time!

Anyways...

Gotta go now... gotta Work on Crossed Waves...

Zya!

you wanna know something???

I am FEELING ELECTRIC today!

Maybe because it is not a monday anymore... it is a tuesday! lol...
I don;t care... the fact is that even tho I am preocupated witht he little things like having tones of bills to pay and stuff like that I am unusually full of energy!

Or as Artur Would say:
Full Enegia, Maxima Energia
Carga Positiva Uh!Uh! Uh!

Lol!!!

I've even been thinking about becoming a Life Coach!!!
What about that???
lol

Zya!

Vive la merde!

Yeap... we're in shit...
What was goin on on her mind I have no idea... but she emptied my account... and hers...

Shit shit shit!!!
I am really running out o ptions here... don't know what to do anymore...

I NEED HELP!!!

Gotta do it...

Ok...

I have just decided something...

this website is in NEED of redoing...

Gotta put myself to do it... Prioriries... lol...

Will try and do something this week...
:)

zya!

My New Role Model!

Hey!!!!
That's what I want to do with my life!!!! :)

U think I could be intereting enough to be a world wide success?
Like an internet celebrity or some't...

lol...

Zya!

Eating me inside

Have you ever done something that it goes completelly against what you believe?
something you have proposed yourself never ever to get yourself involved with?

I am about to do so.
I am about to take a train to Mill Hill Broadway Station for a fotoshoot of a bunch of escort models for a website (www.oursecretdate.co.uk).

I used to think that there was nothing wrong with it...
But now... well... now I am quite sure that's one of the things that is eating me inside.

Money and sex-related-issues were always my downfall... and I swear I've been trying to be good with it. It's been a long long journey. And Here I am... On my way to take a bunch of naked pictures of a bunch of escort girls for money...

and Even tho I have tried to tell myself that it's ok... No sin on it...
It some how feels so wrong...

Needs...

I did something I promissed myself I wouldn't do...
But in a moment of need I just sucumbed to it...

And what is worse... I believe it was one of the best websites I've ever done since I am back to the UK...

Really... I don;t want to have anything to do with any website like that again...

I know it was provision and well... the service came with the right amount at the right time... God provides... And if it had to be done then Thanks God...

But really... It makes me feel bad...

Anyways...

Zya!

Walk In...

I gotta tell u something...

It is not nice to have your son walking in the bedroom in the middle of the night whil u are at it...

Specially when you haven't had a shag in quite a while!!!

The joys of parenthood... (did you notice the sarcasm... lol)

Zya!

Tell Me about weird dreams...

and I've been having loads of them latelly... weird and confusing...
I think it has a lot to do with my state of mind latelly...

I need some vacations some time to relax, really relax, and forget about everything...
It's been about 3 years since I had one of those...

I think I am about to snap...
I feel like running on empty again...

God... I think I need some help here... LOADS of it!

Damn it is hard to be me! lol

Zya!

momment's wish...

If anyone asks me what I want right at this momment I will have to answer with all conviction: A Job, a normal job where I can get out in the morning, get to the office, tho my stuff then turn off and get back home to rest, or whatever...

I am getting terribly tired of taking life the way I am at the moment...

If I could afforf to have Tommy on a full time nursery so I could actually dedicate daytime to work properlly it would be great and I probably wouldn't be complaining at all...

Problem is that at the moment that is not possible, and by the time he goes for his nap in the afternoon... the time that I have to finally get to work a bit... I am so tired that I can barrelly concentrate on what I am doing... So I end up having to work at night.... Don;t get me wrong... I get the work done on deadlines etc... But it would be good to rest a bit... and on the weekends, when I think I'm gonna rest... I end up remembering tht I have a life and still have things I need to do...

That's what's killing me... I think I am a bit to old for that... lol... I remember the days where I would not need to sleep for a whole week and still be ready for a fight on friday night...

I need to end my Freelancer life... but I can't untill I get something... which looks a bit impossible because I am working at all moments (either on contracts or on taking care of Tommy)...

I need a break!!!!
I need some change to happen...
I need some change to happen for good... not bad!!! lol

I want a normal joooooooooooooooooob!!! lol
Either that or a contract that will pay me enough to get tommy full time in a nursery so I can get it done...

Come on Wendel, get back from Brazil so I gen get an answer!!! lol...

zya!

that's kind of how I feel...

Artist: Delirious
Album: King Of Fools
Title: Deeper

I want to go deeper
but I don't know how to swim
I want to be meeker
but have you seen this old earth
I want to fly higher
but these arms won't take me there
I want to be, I want to be

maybe I could run
maybe I could fly, to you
do you feel the same
when all you see is
blame in me?

and the wonder of it all
is that I'm living just to fall
more in love with you
and the wonder of it all
is that I'm living just to fall
more in love with you

I want to go deeper
but is it just a stupid whim?
I want to be weaker
be a help to the strong
I want to run faster
but this old leg won't carry me
I want to be, I want to be

maybe I could run
maybe I could fly, to you
do you feel the same
when all you see is
blame in me?

and the wonder of it all
is that I'm living just to fall
more in love with you
and the wonder of it all
is that I'm living just to fall
more in love with you

maybe I could run
maybe I could follow
it's time to walk the path
where many seem to fall
hold me in your arms
just like any father would
how long do we have to wait?
how long, we're going all way

and the wonder of it all
is that I'm living just to fall
more in love with you


http://songbook.manueladam.com

Shadows...

I've beem feeling like a shadow of what I used to be.
where is that guy with all that potential and great prospects in life...
The one that was "trained" to be a great leader and that one that had a successfull career in front of him...

I feel so frustrated to now having to limit myself on what I can do... on not having the sky as a limit anymore...

What the hell happened to me??????