yup... I am now moving to wordpress... :)
Really... I've been playing with it lately and the stuff is quite cool... and the best bit is...
I won't lose any of the stuff I already have in this blog!!! yayyyyyyy!!! :)
I have finished importing my Blogger posts and for now onwards my blog adress is:
I know it needs new design etc etc... but that shouldn't be a problem... :)
See you there!!!! :)
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Told Ya!
See... just as I said...
Feeling a lot better today!
No... no shag for me last night... damn you headache! grrrrrrrrrr!!!!
This week promises a lot! Let's hope it lives up to the expectation!
zya!
Feeling a lot better today!
No... no shag for me last night... damn you headache! grrrrrrrrrr!!!!
This week promises a lot! Let's hope it lives up to the expectation!
zya!
Monday, May 19, 2008
Social Life
I have been revising my life today... You know... Monday... Slo-mo, Garfield(ish) day and all... So I had to do something... Anyways...
I've been revising my life today... in special, my social life... And I have definitely, and officially noted that I don't have one! Really... apart from our Cell Meetings, and programs that involve family, or SURGE members, I have no social life what-so-ever... Not even the sort of Social Life that SURGE should provide.
And hey... we're talking about the guy that used to be in all the"baladas" , the guy that used to be one of the first people in Gospel Rock Cafe, Noite Gospel (FreakJ Style) and Arena Jovem, hell even Cafe Cancun, and Sossega Madalena... I would dance all night and be the last to one to leave...
Dude... what happened to me?
The other thing that makes me feel even worse is that my wife has more of a social life than I do... no... even worse... She has an exclusive social life WITHOUT me, Portuguese classes (with drinks after that some times) on Mondays and Wednesdays... OA meetings on tuesdays and whatever seems to happen on Thursdays and Fridays (thank god is not often or I would have gone crazy or something like that already) , which most of the times do not include me... (Baby... I know you are going to read that, and sorry if I am not being completely fair here, but put yourself in my position... remember when I used to work out and you stayed in the house all day? Well... that is sort of how I feel... The difference is that I used to co me straight back home. Too bad docs don't take me seriously enough to prescribe me something... I think I could really do with some happy pills... and u know how much I hate them!!!)
My life has become simply taking care of the boy (which I love to do... but hey... I need a break once in a while...), whilst trying to run CWI from home, without a fixed salary, which all in all and fair enough I knew it was going to happen for a while so no complains here... my career choice... I just wish I hadn't paused with the web design and photography... that is taking ages to get back in track...
And I won't even comment on my sexual life... Can't remember when was last time... about a month ago? Well...
I know I probably should not comment on many things I comment in this blog... but really... who am I gonna talk to about it? I am second in command and first in command is my mother... and let's put it like that... Some things I am not at liberty to talk to her about... well... many things...
I look like a grumpy old men don't I? Well... never mind...
I better stop... I am holding up not to burst into tears again... Or not... I don;t know... so many conflicts in my head right now that I don't really know know...
Maybe I just need to vent it some how...
Maybe I need stress relieve...
Maybe I need happy pills....
Maybe all I need is a hot shower...
or a shag...
Right ranted and raved far enough today... tomorrow things will be different (always the optimist... but hey... that's me...) all I need is to compose myself, and most of the time a couple hours of sleep would solve the problem... or a shag... lol
Gotta go... starting to sound stupid! :)
zya!
I've been revising my life today... in special, my social life... And I have definitely, and officially noted that I don't have one! Really... apart from our Cell Meetings, and programs that involve family, or SURGE members, I have no social life what-so-ever... Not even the sort of Social Life that SURGE should provide.
And hey... we're talking about the guy that used to be in all the"baladas" , the guy that used to be one of the first people in Gospel Rock Cafe, Noite Gospel (FreakJ Style) and Arena Jovem, hell even Cafe Cancun, and Sossega Madalena... I would dance all night and be the last to one to leave...
Dude... what happened to me?
The other thing that makes me feel even worse is that my wife has more of a social life than I do... no... even worse... She has an exclusive social life WITHOUT me, Portuguese classes (with drinks after that some times) on Mondays and Wednesdays... OA meetings on tuesdays and whatever seems to happen on Thursdays and Fridays (thank god is not often or I would have gone crazy or something like that already) , which most of the times do not include me... (Baby... I know you are going to read that, and sorry if I am not being completely fair here, but put yourself in my position... remember when I used to work out and you stayed in the house all day? Well... that is sort of how I feel... The difference is that I used to co me straight back home. Too bad docs don't take me seriously enough to prescribe me something... I think I could really do with some happy pills... and u know how much I hate them!!!)
My life has become simply taking care of the boy (which I love to do... but hey... I need a break once in a while...), whilst trying to run CWI from home, without a fixed salary, which all in all and fair enough I knew it was going to happen for a while so no complains here... my career choice... I just wish I hadn't paused with the web design and photography... that is taking ages to get back in track...
And I won't even comment on my sexual life... Can't remember when was last time... about a month ago? Well...
I know I probably should not comment on many things I comment in this blog... but really... who am I gonna talk to about it? I am second in command and first in command is my mother... and let's put it like that... Some things I am not at liberty to talk to her about... well... many things...
I look like a grumpy old men don't I? Well... never mind...
I better stop... I am holding up not to burst into tears again... Or not... I don;t know... so many conflicts in my head right now that I don't really know know...
Maybe I just need to vent it some how...
Maybe I need stress relieve...
Maybe I need happy pills....
Maybe all I need is a hot shower...
or a shag...
Right ranted and raved far enough today... tomorrow things will be different (always the optimist... but hey... that's me...) all I need is to compose myself, and most of the time a couple hours of sleep would solve the problem... or a shag... lol
Gotta go... starting to sound stupid! :)
zya!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Pics Reloaded!!
Ok ok... I know I haven't commented much on stuff we've been doing on my posts, so I have decided to do it in pictures...
So for those of you that don't have Facebook, here are the pics... (or the link to their albums, just click on the subject to see the pics) :)
TB's B'day
Tommy's birthday party for his school friends at the wacky warehouse... :)
he was ill but when he saw them he bightenned as quickly as sunshine. :)
bless him!
Location: Wacky Warehouse South
TB the GymnastBeth has decided to introduce Tommy to Gymnastics... lol... it was great fun!!! :)
Location: Liphook
PortsmouthWe're waking Pompey up!!! ;)
Base Group Portsmouth coming soon!
Location: Portsmouth
HMS BelfastA nice day out part of this weekend's activities which was VERY eventful! :)
Location: London Bridge
Wimbledon ParkA nice day out part of this weekend's activities which was VERY eventful! :)
Location: Wimbledon Park
Snow Fest:what we did last sunday at the hedgerow!! :)
Location: Longfield
Well... That's it for now methinks!! There might be more in Vic's albums but hey... :)
zya!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Why do i hate summer?????
Because I love it!! :/
OK... let me explain myself here...
Everyone knows I absolutely admire the human body as one of the greatest and most well designed and beautiful things ever made ever ever and ever...
God REALLY was inspired on the sixth day. :)
And that is the reason why I hate summer, even though I love it (who ever said that love is not complicated... :) )... Because summer, specially in Europe, is the season where you will find LOADS of things like that:
And that:
All over the place...
Well you got the drill...
Which fair enough, when you don't get something very often, in this case warm weather, sun rays, etc, the moment you get it you are prone to enjoy it at it's utmost. It is not a problem at all... it is summer, it is hot and all... The only problem is when you are a married fellow like me. And let's put it like that... if you are a guy, married or not, you will be lying through your teeth if you're telling me you don't notice it. The only difference is that some are more vocal about it, and others are not. Is that true or am I a freak?
Hey... maybe that is why most of my friends used to think I would never get married!! lol!!! And even so... here I am, married for 4 years now... almost 5, and with a wonderful kiddo that in 4 days will be 4 years old. On your face!! :P
And I am VERY lucky my wife knows who I am, the way I am and that she loves me anyways. :) It helps that I know that if I eat out of the house I'll be punished! You can see but you can't touch!!! I'm such a good doggie! :)
huahuahuahuahuahuahua...
Anyways... U gotta loooooooooove summer! :)
zya!!!
OK... let me explain myself here...
Everyone knows I absolutely admire the human body as one of the greatest and most well designed and beautiful things ever made ever ever and ever...
God REALLY was inspired on the sixth day. :)
And that is the reason why I hate summer, even though I love it (who ever said that love is not complicated... :) )... Because summer, specially in Europe, is the season where you will find LOADS of things like that:
And that:
All over the place...
Well you got the drill...
Which fair enough, when you don't get something very often, in this case warm weather, sun rays, etc, the moment you get it you are prone to enjoy it at it's utmost. It is not a problem at all... it is summer, it is hot and all... The only problem is when you are a married fellow like me. And let's put it like that... if you are a guy, married or not, you will be lying through your teeth if you're telling me you don't notice it. The only difference is that some are more vocal about it, and others are not. Is that true or am I a freak?
Hey... maybe that is why most of my friends used to think I would never get married!! lol!!! And even so... here I am, married for 4 years now... almost 5, and with a wonderful kiddo that in 4 days will be 4 years old. On your face!! :P
And I am VERY lucky my wife knows who I am, the way I am and that she loves me anyways. :) It helps that I know that if I eat out of the house I'll be punished! You can see but you can't touch!!! I'm such a good doggie! :)
huahuahuahuahuahuahua...
Anyways... U gotta loooooooooove summer! :)
zya!!!
Saturday, May 10, 2008
This is WAR!!!
Imagine an annoying neighbor!!
OK... now imagine this annoying neighbor loudly playing and singing karaoke at 3am!
Now imagine when you get downstairs to complain , the drunk BITCH neighbor (ok... a hot, wearing not a lot bitch, but a bitch all the same) complains about heavy steps all day on their sealing which, according to some twisted logic gives them the right to karaoke all night long if they want to...
Sensibly her partner (or so I thought he was her partner) came to the door and said they would lower the volume down a notch. This took affect for about 10 minutes when music started again at full blast. The music wasn't bad... but their voices singing along with microphones... they were literally to excruciating.
This was confirmed when one of our neighbors came along shouting up their windows telling them to shut the f**k up which they responded with "do you want any particular song you want us to sing?".
Do you want to know the worst bit of them all? When we called the police on them the response we got was simply "we stop sending people to disturbance dispatches at 4am".
Grrrrrrrr!!!!!
This is war!!!
You know the heavy steps they were complaining about? Well... they are now going to get worse... and my response will simply be:"I am 18 stone fat mate... there ain't no soch thing as stepping lightly" and there will also not be any "tommy stop running around" and "no bouncing so you don't disturb the neighbors". Instead there will be: "come on tommy! let's play Tigger!!!" ins in tigger from Winnie the Pooh... the one that loves to bounce.
At the moment... I am not a happy Bunnie!
Zya!
PS: Am I a grumpy old man??? :)
OK... now imagine this annoying neighbor loudly playing and singing karaoke at 3am!
Now imagine when you get downstairs to complain , the drunk BITCH neighbor (ok... a hot, wearing not a lot bitch, but a bitch all the same) complains about heavy steps all day on their sealing which, according to some twisted logic gives them the right to karaoke all night long if they want to...
Sensibly her partner (or so I thought he was her partner) came to the door and said they would lower the volume down a notch. This took affect for about 10 minutes when music started again at full blast. The music wasn't bad... but their voices singing along with microphones... they were literally to excruciating.
This was confirmed when one of our neighbors came along shouting up their windows telling them to shut the f**k up which they responded with "do you want any particular song you want us to sing?".
Do you want to know the worst bit of them all? When we called the police on them the response we got was simply "we stop sending people to disturbance dispatches at 4am".
Grrrrrrrr!!!!!
This is war!!!
You know the heavy steps they were complaining about? Well... they are now going to get worse... and my response will simply be:"I am 18 stone fat mate... there ain't no soch thing as stepping lightly" and there will also not be any "tommy stop running around" and "no bouncing so you don't disturb the neighbors". Instead there will be: "come on tommy! let's play Tigger!!!" ins in tigger from Winnie the Pooh... the one that loves to bounce.
At the moment... I am not a happy Bunnie!
Zya!
PS: Am I a grumpy old man??? :)
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Domestics...
...I absolutely hate them!!!
But if u gotta have one then do it...
I feel like I am carrying the world on my shoulders... Every day... every waking time.
Why do I have to care so much?
God... help me... please!
But if u gotta have one then do it...
I feel like I am carrying the world on my shoulders... Every day... every waking time.
Why do I have to care so much?
God... help me... please!
Monday, May 05, 2008
Hate Something...
Following the events that happened last Friday, I have now developed an official dislike to all and any of Vic's colleagues (or ex-colleagues, thanks God!!) at H&L!
It is only because I love her and in consideration of that that I will go to her leaving due as requested. OK... maybe the fact that I need to make more of an effort to get out there has something to do with that as well... but Hey... that doesn't make me dislike them any less...
To tell the truth it would all probably have been OK if that £"£$%$£^$%^ of whoever answered Vic's phone didn't hung up on my face... and of course it would have helped A LOT if Vic hadn't arrived after 2AM as she did, both worrying me sick and letting all this hate brew in my head and deep within...
In fact I know I was out of bounds telling her to come home as I did and simply hanging up... but it was VERY childish of her to retaliate ins this manner. I don't know... I guess I had had an awful day and that was just the last droplet to spill the cup...
I've been feeling like a pressed down string lately... Have too much in my head... The fact that my way of doing things, or thinking for all that matters, does not agree in great part with my leader, which also happens to be my mother, and the fact that I feel that my wife has been distanced and not interested in what I am trying to achieve doesn't help much. Add to the equation the fact that I am at the moment with more responsibilities that I could probably cope with, making next to zero money and having to cope all day, night and weekends (ok... shared but hey) with my 3 year old son that I LOVE TO BITS, but that can be a bit (a lot) demanding and hyperactive for the whole if his awaken time and what you will get is someone that is a heart attack waiting to happen.
That's how I feel half the time anyways... I think that's why I feel that it doesn't really matter how much I do I can't achieve anything...
That is why half the time I am holding on to the last of my strength and sanity not to burst into tears and completely fall apart. And oh... am I good at that!!! about 20 years of experience! It almost killed a couple of times, but here I am... solid... no... not really... not so solid... I am falling apart a bit at the time...
They say you need 3 points of support to maintain psychologically sane... I am struggling to find them or to recognize them... my strong points sometimes feel like weak spots...
I love my god, I love my wife, I love my son, I love my family... I love myself... I think...
What's wrong with me?!?!?!?!
Do I make any sense at all????????????
Please tell me if I do... tell me if I don't...
Is it all in vain????
Please...
It is only because I love her and in consideration of that that I will go to her leaving due as requested. OK... maybe the fact that I need to make more of an effort to get out there has something to do with that as well... but Hey... that doesn't make me dislike them any less...
To tell the truth it would all probably have been OK if that £"£$%$£^$%^ of whoever answered Vic's phone didn't hung up on my face... and of course it would have helped A LOT if Vic hadn't arrived after 2AM as she did, both worrying me sick and letting all this hate brew in my head and deep within...
In fact I know I was out of bounds telling her to come home as I did and simply hanging up... but it was VERY childish of her to retaliate ins this manner. I don't know... I guess I had had an awful day and that was just the last droplet to spill the cup...
I've been feeling like a pressed down string lately... Have too much in my head... The fact that my way of doing things, or thinking for all that matters, does not agree in great part with my leader, which also happens to be my mother, and the fact that I feel that my wife has been distanced and not interested in what I am trying to achieve doesn't help much. Add to the equation the fact that I am at the moment with more responsibilities that I could probably cope with, making next to zero money and having to cope all day, night and weekends (ok... shared but hey) with my 3 year old son that I LOVE TO BITS, but that can be a bit (a lot) demanding and hyperactive for the whole if his awaken time and what you will get is someone that is a heart attack waiting to happen.
That's how I feel half the time anyways... I think that's why I feel that it doesn't really matter how much I do I can't achieve anything...
That is why half the time I am holding on to the last of my strength and sanity not to burst into tears and completely fall apart. And oh... am I good at that!!! about 20 years of experience! It almost killed a couple of times, but here I am... solid... no... not really... not so solid... I am falling apart a bit at the time...
They say you need 3 points of support to maintain psychologically sane... I am struggling to find them or to recognize them... my strong points sometimes feel like weak spots...
I love my god, I love my wife, I love my son, I love my family... I love myself... I think...
What's wrong with me?!?!?!?!
Do I make any sense at all????????????
Please tell me if I do... tell me if I don't...
Is it all in vain????
Please...
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